We had dinner at the Reata. It is our anniversary. Dinner was wonderful. I had my most favorite meal...wedge salad and tortilla soup. I absolutely LOVE this combination...and I can eat it!! The soup was without the tortillas...which makes it a little redundant...tortilla soup...get it?? Anyway...it was delicious as usual and much more than I could eat. So I brought it home for breakfast. I'll have the balance of the salad in a little while. The dressing is amazing.
We were done with the meal and here comes the waitress with a 'special' dessert. Husband (he can be really sweet when he wants to) asked the chef to make something I could eat...so he made an apple dessert. It looks like he sauteed the apples a bit and then baked them with a sprinkle of Splenda and had a couple of strawberries on the side. It was warm and amazing. It was my fruit for the day but I couldn't eat but half of that, too...so I'll have it for breakfast with the rest of the soup. It was a perfect meal.
Our great friends, Mary Ann and Paul sent us a beautiful
bouquet of flowers. Yes...I can see that it's sideways...just lay down and look at it!! I thought I had 'rotated it clockwise' but evidently I didn't and I thought...well...let me just go fix it!! I tried, and now I can't make it 'browse' to find the photos. Screw it. It's beautiful. I have to put it up on the bookcase so Tom doesn't eat it.
I think I'll go watch TV. Not much on...but I'm pretty tired. It was a very long day. Have a nice evening!
b
Don't be alarmed...it's just me being a smart ass! I feel a million times better right this minute. I ate an orange! A WHOLE orange...peel and all!! Well...most of it. It was almost as good as chocolate...almost. Not quite. Different scale of satisfaction. But it was amazing. It's crazy how many things you take for granted. Like just picking up an orange and eating it. I have learned to truly appreciate food.
It was a little weird last night. I ate pea soup (homemade by Husband...delicioso!) and a Grand's biscuit. Then I had some plain yogurt with maybe a dozen blueberries mixed in. I checked my BS almost 4 hours later and it was 297!!!! Holy shit!!
Husband said..."What did you eat!!"
I said..."What you made me!!"
He said...""Well, what the hell is going on!"
I replied..."How the hell do I know?" (Actually I said 'how the f**k do I know'...big surprise)
So we began to analyze the sit-che-a-shun. After a few minutes of serious thinking...'we' determined it was most likely the biscuit. Everything else was within the limits and bounds so I'm thinking it was the flour in the Grands. I looked it up on line for carb count and it's right up there. Possibly the combination of the peas (carbs) and biscuit??? I'm thinking yes. The yogurt is almost no sugar...But it was strange. An hour later it was coming down...but I have decided no white flour stuff at all for a while (even cheating!) and if I eat something like that...if...I will eat it during the day when I'll work it off. BFFMS concurs with the diagnosis. But I think she wants me to eat cake. I don't want to disappoint her. I'm that kind of a friend!!
Speaking of working it off...we moved the HUGE commercial dryer around today to duct it and I thought I was going to die. Honestly. I was seeing yellow flashing lights that I had never seen before. Possibly a bit too strenuous. I used to be so strong...mega strong...and now I am a wimp. A weak wimp. A weak starving pathetically tired wimp. I hate it. So I ate a banana and felt a little better. I won't be doing that again for a while.
That's also why I ate the orange. Remember? I can have 2 pieces of fruit a day now! And that orange revitalized me. I needed the citrus in my body.
I hope to finish up a few hats tonight. I have a ton of them to do...that craft show is creeping up on me. If I had known this was going to happen to me...and I mean the seeing thing...I would have been busier! Well...maybe. Well...no...probably not. I have stuff. It will be fine...
Husband is planning Thanksgiving dinner. You are all invited. Seriously.
I want a pie right now.
Do you realize that a year ago Husband and I were in Las Vegas? It seems like yesterday. I can't believe a whole year has passed.
I think I'll go and work on some hats while the light is still good. Might be back later.
b
Today was 'Brenda goes to the Dietitian and Dr day'. Since I keep such good records on my food intake (except for that piece of cake) Dietitian was impressed. She told me things I already knew and many things I didn't. Husband went with me since he is my personal nutritionist and preparer of my meals...and he had a list of questions. Actually, they talked as if I wasn't there...but that was OK. The best thing...I can eat BREAD!! And a POTATO!! AND BANANAS!!
Oh happy day! And I mean that sincerely. Since starting back to work I am burning a lot more calories and I am not taking that many in. Consequently, I lost 4 pounds. Not a good thing. But I can now eat 30 carbs per main meal. Doesn't sound like much, but I can make it work!! I think what I am going to do is make myself a menu. I am better if I have a list. Naturally I would change it when I looked at it...but the general idea is good for me. Structure.
My blood sugar is getting better. It is staying in the 150+ range and a little higher at night. But at least it hasn't spiked in a few days. Dr said she was leaving me on same meds for 2 more weeks. The reason being...I will be eating more food and adding the carbs will increase the BS (I love that!) and if I don't metabolize the carbs properly she may have to increase the meds/or possibly put me on insulin. I work hard enough to use the carbs so I feel confident there will be no insulin.
Good news on the Cholesterol. Total Choles. is high, but triglycerides and HDL are amazingly low. That is a very good thing...so no Choles. meds. Yippee!! And on this 'diet'....no more bacon, sausage, sour cream, cream cheese, bologna, salami or ribs. Shit!! I seriously love bologna. I don't care what it's made of. And I was sure that Fat Free Sour Cream and Fat Free Cream Cheese would be fine...evidently not.
Did I tell you I drank Coke Zero...and lived?? It's not that bad. I wanted something stingy and not club soda...and it was something I could drink so I did. I do not like Diet Coke. At all. Nope.
The worst part...my vision. It's very bad and getting worse. Dr said I could see eye DR, but not advisable yet to get glasses. Then why would I want to see eye DR?? I already know that I can't see!! Meds are causing the problem. That too shall pass. But it's very distressing.
Guess what I got in the mail today from my Father in Law! Instruments to cause me great pain!! He sent me a Blood Glucose meter and lancets...all the better to stab me with!! This is great because I will have one to keep at work. It's easier than carrying it around with me. I will get another one to keep in the truck. A very big THANK YOU!!! to the Beeb...
Let's see...on a work note...we finished tiling the floor in the kitchen. It looks wonderful!! We will finish moving stuff around in there tomorrow and be off on the next project whatever that may be. I need to take some 'after' photos of our remodeling room.
Will update more stuff tomorrow...I need to lie down for a while. Have a great night!
b
Well...I'm under 200 - over 200 - under 200 - you get the drill. Used to be my weight, but now it's my blood sugar! I didn't feel all that great today. I'm not sure why. Tomorrow will be better.
I may have mentioned that I see a Dietitian on Tuesday. If she says I can have a donut...I swear...I'll eat it with tweezers to make it last forever! I know that's not going to happen, but I can dream!! Remember that Tootsie Roll moment!
I am hoping to work on some craft stuff this week. Since I made my 'new glasses' my vision is...well...crystal clear!! (I wish!) But I should be able to do a few things in the afternoon while the light is still good. Oh-oh....there is a hard freeze expected in Marfa tonight. Brrrrrr. And the time changes tonight. Does this make me younger???
I know I mentioned Rickshaw...and it's a cool story but I need more time to devote to writing about him...so I will in a couple of days.
I need to lie down. I got too tired today. See you tomorrow.
b
I dreamt of Tootsie Rolls. How pathetic have I become!! I seriously think Husband was blowing M&M breath at me while I was sleeping!! Cause I swear...I was tasting that chocolate!! And it was GREAT!! When I get "the WORD..." I am getting Russell Stover Sugar Free ANYTHING!!!
But here's the best news...my before supper BS was 171!!! I am SO freakin' happy! This is the first time with a below 201 reading! I am overly confident. We'll see what happens at bedtime. I lost $5 to Husband. He bet me it would be below 200 today...I normally hate it when he's right! Today was the (only) exception.
I have a million holes in my fingertips. I have no blood! I mean...I can stab myself and nothing comes out! I need one of those meters where I can stab my arm, or neck...or something with blood in it.
I got the Lab work back today. All organ function - Normal. Glucose and cholesterol - Abnormal. Duh! So I guess I'll be on some kind of med for that!
And my vision is soooooooo blurry. This -> is how I am
reading this blog tonight. I, because I am cheap
(not frugal...cheap) have some 2.75 magnifying glasses
(I know!! Isn't that coke bottle bad!) which I have put on
first....and then....get a visual of this...I have a pair of
1.50's on OVER those! These are my homemade
bi-focals!! I am not shitting you! Have you any idea how difficult it was to take this photo without wearing the glasses!
Pros - I can see.
Cons - They are heavy!!!! My nose is killing me!!
I know once I am balanced out I will be fine. I wore glasses prior to medication, but mostly at night when I was making jewelry, etc. and for reading. Always reading! Never for watching TV! Now, I have to wear the 2.75 pair just to see to walk around!! I am not liking this at all.
It's chilly tonight. I love it.
I am drinking ice water with lemon and lime chunks. It's great. I don't think I can drink another cup of tea today. And you know I love tea...but I am full. Of tea. Oh...I know lemons and limes are fruit. Don't go there. I am drinking them...not eating them. My rules.
We had an adventure(r) here today. I will fill in the blanks tomorrow. Remember this work...Rickshaw...nite!!
b
What an oxy-moron. I did go to work today. First day in a week. My blood sugar still hasn't dropped below 200 yet. I am strictly following my restricted food diet. Jennifer (in the office) had a basket of Tootsie Rolls. I could actually feel one melting in my mouth, gettin softer and creamier...and chocolatier...even feeling the texture when I closed my eyes...oh the TORTURE!! I have not had a real hankering for anything like that, until today...when I saw them. Oh, but wait! I had my delicious sugarless gum! What was I thinking!! Decadent!!
My eyes are so blurry. I have on my strongest glasses and I can see the TV and it's 12 feet from my. I have my Netbook screen resolution at 150% and it's 13" from me!!!! I know it's the meds. I am living with it...as if there is an alternative. I can't even see the back of a can...or read a magazine! It will be OK. I was going to try to crochet...but just haven't yet.
Sorry I'm whining. Husband is eating some M&M's. I hate him right now.
I got a necklace in the mail today. One for those who have diabetes. It's too long, but I'll live with it. I also got the pill dispenser because I'm too stupid to remember if I take my meds. I like organization and simplfication. Simple is as simple does.
I'm going to take a shower and lay down. It's only 8 but it was a long day for me. See you soon...
b
Today's numbers: 215 / 225 / 216 (no bedtime yet) Much better.
I have decided I can't do this traditional breakfast thing. Husband made Chinese stir fry tonight. With turkey and the veggies. No rice. No thickening stuff. Excellent. I have decided that I am having Chinese for breakfast. I can deal with that.
I plan to go back to work for a couple of hours on Wednesday. I know I won't last a full day and I refuse to push myself. I walked around today and got fresh air. I was only really nauseous before lunch today. And I'm having some issues with medication in my system. I seem to be having some of the...um...side effects. 'Nough said.
OK...bedtime reading 265...shit! I'm still doing better.
I just wanted to write a few words...have a nice nite!
b
